So it is pretty late, at least for being on vacation anyways. I am listening to Sarah Smile by Hall and Oates right now; that song is so tight and I would recommend it to anyone. My cousin Marlania and her family have been here for the past week and are leaving tomorrow, it has been fun. There are so many things to be done before I fly off to Spain in August like: getting my passport, raising money, working, getting my license, etc. Sometimes I just don't know where to start. However, this summer I will get things done. I won't sit around and talk about things that I am planning on doing. Ok, so I am talking about it in this blog, but this is my blog, so I guess this is ok.
Today was coo, I went to work at Party City. I - for lack of better words-hate that job. I don't hate the people I work with at all, I barely know any of them, I just hate the job itself. it is all about customer service; keeping the customer happy. I would say that I am pretty good at doing that, but the endless task of cleaning up after people only to watch them reck the aisles you just cleaned sucks. But that job has been there for me when I needed it most, and I appreciate it.
So if all goes well I will be traveling to Spain. Man, Spain. I made up my mind that I will see the world and to think in about two months I will start my journey. I hope there is power in seeing new places and things, while meeting new people. I have this notion that going abroad is going to help me understand more about me and who I really am. I know that my thoughts are bouncing around everywhere but I really feel that this might be one of the (hopefully) many life changing experiences of my life. Right now I feel sort of caged in, like a bird that always wanted to fly but its wings were clipped. I know ahhhh. anyway, I am going to try writing again tomorrow. bye bye.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
The Last One Left in the Empty Apartment
The apartment is empty now, which means there are no longer any more familiar voices, no more vibrant music, and no more interesting conversations. As I sit here, my mind can’t help but wonder or think of everything that has happened in this place. It is so scary just looking into the bedroom walls where posters and pictures once hung and into the drawers where clothing was placed. I start to imagine people, my friends sitting at their computers, doing homework, listening to music, talking on the phone. I can see one of them on Facebook looking up new dances or the latest songs. It’s sort of weird to know that this “time” is over.
Memories are powerful things. I have really come to discover this, this year. Two of my closest friends have now graduated, leaving me here (which is cool, I am taking a fifth year). But it is saddening to know that our time together as young college students has passed and that now, we are well on our way to becoming independent adults. I remember thinking not to long ago back on my college years. They went by so fast, and yet I have so many memories. The familiar faces I once knew have mostly graduated and some have even went on to marry and start families. I hate to say I sound like an older person, but for the first time when I look back, I tell myself, “Wow, things have really changed and they might not be like they used to.” And these changes have happened so fast; so fast I didn’t even realized that they were taking place. So in order to stay sane throughout all of these changes, I have really discovered the importance of memories. Memories have the power to make us sad, cringe, scared, happy, nostalgic, hopeful and the list goes on. So I have to keep these memories in my mind and hold on to them until my mind can not hold any more. So as I sit here in this empty apartment, I am replaying these memories in my head. It’s quite cinematic.
Change. It has been said that there is nothing constant except change itself. So throughout life there will always be these stages or that is how I see it at least. I feel that we must appreciate each stage for what it is. So although it saddens me to see my friends go and to sit in this apartment waiting to be driven away as well, I am happy that change has occurred. Changes bring new possibilities for the future. Yes, college is over and we might not ever get a chance to return to those types of moments, but there are going to be new events and moments for us to cherish together. I can’t wait for the wedding invitation, and baby shower parties (so much to look forward to). Change. The apartment is empty, but I feel hopeful.
Memories are powerful things. I have really come to discover this, this year. Two of my closest friends have now graduated, leaving me here (which is cool, I am taking a fifth year). But it is saddening to know that our time together as young college students has passed and that now, we are well on our way to becoming independent adults. I remember thinking not to long ago back on my college years. They went by so fast, and yet I have so many memories. The familiar faces I once knew have mostly graduated and some have even went on to marry and start families. I hate to say I sound like an older person, but for the first time when I look back, I tell myself, “Wow, things have really changed and they might not be like they used to.” And these changes have happened so fast; so fast I didn’t even realized that they were taking place. So in order to stay sane throughout all of these changes, I have really discovered the importance of memories. Memories have the power to make us sad, cringe, scared, happy, nostalgic, hopeful and the list goes on. So I have to keep these memories in my mind and hold on to them until my mind can not hold any more. So as I sit here in this empty apartment, I am replaying these memories in my head. It’s quite cinematic.
Change. It has been said that there is nothing constant except change itself. So throughout life there will always be these stages or that is how I see it at least. I feel that we must appreciate each stage for what it is. So although it saddens me to see my friends go and to sit in this apartment waiting to be driven away as well, I am happy that change has occurred. Changes bring new possibilities for the future. Yes, college is over and we might not ever get a chance to return to those types of moments, but there are going to be new events and moments for us to cherish together. I can’t wait for the wedding invitation, and baby shower parties (so much to look forward to). Change. The apartment is empty, but I feel hopeful.
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