Update !!!!!

Good evening everyone. First I would like to say that I am so sorry for not blogging in so long. I have been to Spain for three months and back already and here I am in my fifth year hear at Irvine!! So much has happened and I have learned so much throughout these last six months and I wouldn't even know where to begin. But what I will do is say what is on my mind as of right now.

So, in efforts to clean up my life (not that there were super serious things that needed to be cleaned up, e.g pertaining to drugs and alcohol) I decided to enroll in a Kickboxing class offered at my school's recreations center (which is amazing btw). I figure that if I don't like something about myself I should change it or at least do something to improve whatever aspect of my life that I feel needs improvement. So today was the first class and as always I started with half-hearted expectations. I knew that I was not going to get through this class without breaking fifty million times and that everyone else's performance would make even Billy Blanks shed a tear. So, I walk in to the room, the lights are dim and no one is there. I am always early. I like to survey the area in which my sweaty carcass will be discovered. I sit on the floor and stretch, but then the teacher walks in and greets me, she's nice, asks me questions about my major and so on and so forth you know, college small talk. Well not to hold you hostage here forever, this is leading somewhere.

During the class I did stop many times, I mean I got a really good workout, but not a great one, not the one that I could have gotten if I were to stick with it. I figure that the workout is like a metaphor for the way I have approached problems and obstacles in my life. I start off great, I am really feelin it, no one can stop me because, YES!! I am improving myself as the blood rushes through my vains. But then as the heat turns up, I start to feel challenged and tired. I start to think about sitting out just for a few second to catch my breath. "No No, I can't do that, I must keep going and push through the pain. Pain is weakness leaving the body," I chant several times in my head. Then finally I stopped "to drink water." And when I did, that is when I began to see everyone pass me by, I began to feel discouraged and confused. OK, I don't really know where confusion fits in, literally those moves were pretty hard to execute. But anyway, I was hard for me to get back in because I was too focused on everyone else and not on myself. I let everyone else in the room effect my own progress, and that ain't good.

So you know how "they" say that every experience is a learning one, well I have learned to not give up. I will continue to attend my class and I will give anyone that wants to know an update. BTW, Physical fitness is not the only area of my life that I am working on, but going in to all of those could take all day. Step by step people.

Random but not really - I have to thank God for blessing me is so many ways. I mean, I prayed for God to bless me and all but wow, I have really been seeing some real results these past few weeks. And don't worry I also pray for the fam and friends too, so if something good has happened to you *wink*, jkjkjk. I will get into that stuff later too, just wanted to give a shout out. ok Until Next Time.

I am will be talking about spain soon and posting vids on my Youtube page. ;)

-Tina cupcakes<3