Procrastination is such a bad thing gals and guys. How to push past that feeling of..."I'll get to is later," or "I'll wait til tomorrow." is one of the biggest enigmas of life. Well my answer is to JUST DO IT. It is as simple as that. Just get up and do what ever it is that you have been wanting to complete. Don't take my word for it, practice this for yourself and see how you feel afterwards. Beleive me your future self will thank you, future self - "Thanks you soooo much past self." Yes the only way to get things done is to just get up and get them done. It is also my belief that if we continue to push past feelings of procrastination, we will then eventually shed the feelings. You will foster inside yourself a culture of productivity. But yes procrastination SUCKS, but the good news is that it is never to late to start doing something, unless you're dead. I am at work right now but that just popped into my mind. At first I was thinking, "Well I can wait until I get home a blog about it." But I just did it, right now, at work. So my message to all of you stuck experiencing the procrastination blues, JUST DO IT!!!! k
Luv ya much
Friday, February 5, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Trans People and Cupcakes !!! Luvley!!
Ok so what is up with me and what is happening in life. Well interestingly enough I have been really interested in the lives of transexual women, (I am not trying to walk down that road folks). I think it is truly interesting how someone totally switches genders. It got me thinking about how I viewed gender. At first I was really reluctant to except it. I was thinking, "You are what you are born!!!" and if anything, you might let's say create a new alternative gender, something that is more fluid. Then I found that I started to become irritated at the fact that people could actually change their birth certificates. That seemed bizarre to me. Thinking, so lets say I fall in "love" with this "guy" then he later tells me that he was a girl and now he is a man. I started to feel totally freaked out. BUT! now I am started to really think about why I would feel freaked out. Why do trans women make me feel uneasy. I feel like I just seen them as, just another man trying to take over the world of women. lol Then I started thinking that, men have options for everything, they could even become a women if they wanted to. However a trans man, would have to...well, I don't know what they would have to do in terms of "anatomy". AH MEN!. But now I feel that I have become a little more open to the fact that there exist different people in the world. I still have my own ideas about the subject, but now I am open to being enlightened, i guess. But yeah I have really been looking at youtube vids about it, random, but that's me.
What else is going in my head. Yes!! I am getting ready to graduate -PRAYING TO GOD A PASS THESE LAST FEW CLASSES- and it is getting really scary. I don't know what I want to do, or better, I know what I want to do, act and entertainment but I am unsure as to which road to choose. Graduation just presents so many questions, What to do? How to pay for student loans - AND LET ME TELL YOU I GOT THOSE. MAN!! I am thinking of going to Spain to teach English and getting into some theater as well. Maybe the Spanish will love me like the French did Josephine Baker -LESS BANANAS AND EXOTIFICATION THOUGH!! But we will see, I figure god will lead me down the path that he intends for me, ya heard me.
I have crazy ideas in my head, movie scripts, plays, and cupcake shops!, I know I am everywhere, I want to open up a cupcake bakery one day to. I please believe that my cupcakes will be BOMB!!! I love cupcakes, in fact when I get my first dog, tea cup something, I am going to name him cupcakes, yes that is plural!
Also, I am attending a group dealing with body image now. Yeah, if you have read my past blogs you know I got issues, lol. But the group is going well, I love it, plus I would recommend anyone going through anything that is driving them crazy to get counseling. I feel that it is good to get things off your chest and to let things go. More on that later though. I am staying positive and motivating!!
Well this entry was everywhere I know, but hey that's me. until next time luvs
MUAH <3
XTEENA
What else is going in my head. Yes!! I am getting ready to graduate -PRAYING TO GOD A PASS THESE LAST FEW CLASSES- and it is getting really scary. I don't know what I want to do, or better, I know what I want to do, act and entertainment but I am unsure as to which road to choose. Graduation just presents so many questions, What to do? How to pay for student loans - AND LET ME TELL YOU I GOT THOSE. MAN!! I am thinking of going to Spain to teach English and getting into some theater as well. Maybe the Spanish will love me like the French did Josephine Baker -LESS BANANAS AND EXOTIFICATION THOUGH!! But we will see, I figure god will lead me down the path that he intends for me, ya heard me.
I have crazy ideas in my head, movie scripts, plays, and cupcake shops!, I know I am everywhere, I want to open up a cupcake bakery one day to. I please believe that my cupcakes will be BOMB!!! I love cupcakes, in fact when I get my first dog, tea cup something, I am going to name him cupcakes, yes that is plural!
Also, I am attending a group dealing with body image now. Yeah, if you have read my past blogs you know I got issues, lol. But the group is going well, I love it, plus I would recommend anyone going through anything that is driving them crazy to get counseling. I feel that it is good to get things off your chest and to let things go. More on that later though. I am staying positive and motivating!!
Well this entry was everywhere I know, but hey that's me. until next time luvs
MUAH <3
XTEENA
Monday, January 11, 2010
Update !!!!!
Good evening everyone. First I would like to say that I am so sorry for not blogging in so long. I have been to Spain for three months and back already and here I am in my fifth year hear at Irvine!! So much has happened and I have learned so much throughout these last six months and I wouldn't even know where to begin. But what I will do is say what is on my mind as of right now.
So, in efforts to clean up my life (not that there were super serious things that needed to be cleaned up, e.g pertaining to drugs and alcohol) I decided to enroll in a Kickboxing class offered at my school's recreations center (which is amazing btw). I figure that if I don't like something about myself I should change it or at least do something to improve whatever aspect of my life that I feel needs improvement. So today was the first class and as always I started with half-hearted expectations. I knew that I was not going to get through this class without breaking fifty million times and that everyone else's performance would make even Billy Blanks shed a tear. So, I walk in to the room, the lights are dim and no one is there. I am always early. I like to survey the area in which my sweaty carcass will be discovered. I sit on the floor and stretch, but then the teacher walks in and greets me, she's nice, asks me questions about my major and so on and so forth you know, college small talk. Well not to hold you hostage here forever, this is leading somewhere.
During the class I did stop many times, I mean I got a really good workout, but not a great one, not the one that I could have gotten if I were to stick with it. I figure that the workout is like a metaphor for the way I have approached problems and obstacles in my life. I start off great, I am really feelin it, no one can stop me because, YES!! I am improving myself as the blood rushes through my vains. But then as the heat turns up, I start to feel challenged and tired. I start to think about sitting out just for a few second to catch my breath. "No No, I can't do that, I must keep going and push through the pain. Pain is weakness leaving the body," I chant several times in my head. Then finally I stopped "to drink water." And when I did, that is when I began to see everyone pass me by, I began to feel discouraged and confused. OK, I don't really know where confusion fits in, literally those moves were pretty hard to execute. But anyway, I was hard for me to get back in because I was too focused on everyone else and not on myself. I let everyone else in the room effect my own progress, and that ain't good.
So you know how "they" say that every experience is a learning one, well I have learned to not give up. I will continue to attend my class and I will give anyone that wants to know an update. BTW, Physical fitness is not the only area of my life that I am working on, but going in to all of those could take all day. Step by step people.
Random but not really - I have to thank God for blessing me is so many ways. I mean, I prayed for God to bless me and all but wow, I have really been seeing some real results these past few weeks. And don't worry I also pray for the fam and friends too, so if something good has happened to you *wink*, jkjkjk. I will get into that stuff later too, just wanted to give a shout out. ok Until Next Time.
I am will be talking about spain soon and posting vids on my Youtube page. ;)
-Tina cupcakes<3
So, in efforts to clean up my life (not that there were super serious things that needed to be cleaned up, e.g pertaining to drugs and alcohol) I decided to enroll in a Kickboxing class offered at my school's recreations center (which is amazing btw). I figure that if I don't like something about myself I should change it or at least do something to improve whatever aspect of my life that I feel needs improvement. So today was the first class and as always I started with half-hearted expectations. I knew that I was not going to get through this class without breaking fifty million times and that everyone else's performance would make even Billy Blanks shed a tear. So, I walk in to the room, the lights are dim and no one is there. I am always early. I like to survey the area in which my sweaty carcass will be discovered. I sit on the floor and stretch, but then the teacher walks in and greets me, she's nice, asks me questions about my major and so on and so forth you know, college small talk. Well not to hold you hostage here forever, this is leading somewhere.
During the class I did stop many times, I mean I got a really good workout, but not a great one, not the one that I could have gotten if I were to stick with it. I figure that the workout is like a metaphor for the way I have approached problems and obstacles in my life. I start off great, I am really feelin it, no one can stop me because, YES!! I am improving myself as the blood rushes through my vains. But then as the heat turns up, I start to feel challenged and tired. I start to think about sitting out just for a few second to catch my breath. "No No, I can't do that, I must keep going and push through the pain. Pain is weakness leaving the body," I chant several times in my head. Then finally I stopped "to drink water." And when I did, that is when I began to see everyone pass me by, I began to feel discouraged and confused. OK, I don't really know where confusion fits in, literally those moves were pretty hard to execute. But anyway, I was hard for me to get back in because I was too focused on everyone else and not on myself. I let everyone else in the room effect my own progress, and that ain't good.
So you know how "they" say that every experience is a learning one, well I have learned to not give up. I will continue to attend my class and I will give anyone that wants to know an update. BTW, Physical fitness is not the only area of my life that I am working on, but going in to all of those could take all day. Step by step people.
Random but not really - I have to thank God for blessing me is so many ways. I mean, I prayed for God to bless me and all but wow, I have really been seeing some real results these past few weeks. And don't worry I also pray for the fam and friends too, so if something good has happened to you *wink*, jkjkjk. I will get into that stuff later too, just wanted to give a shout out. ok Until Next Time.
I am will be talking about spain soon and posting vids on my Youtube page. ;)
-Tina cupcakes<3
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