The Battle with the Self

it is like 12:31 am and I can't seem to sleep.  Being in College has definite thrown me off in terms of my sleeping patterns.  I am always sleepy in the day time yet I am not sleepy when I want to go to sleep at night.  But I must ask myself what is keeping me awake.  I find myself tossing and turing in my extra long bed thinking about all sort of things.  Sometimes I think about graduating, sometimes I think about school work, men.  Then I fall to sleep eventually about an hour of two after I have laid down.  Then my dreams start to take over.  They say that your dreams are really you just playing out anything you would want to be but are not in reality.  (I bet there way a better more grammatically correct way to say that but whatever)  Maybe that is why I can't sleep, maybe there are too many things that I am not that I have to be in my dreams.   don't Know.  Before I laid my little head down to sleep I was thinking about everything that I wanted to be in life and everything that way holding me back from doing so and I started to feel down.  It wasn't that these things were all out outside forces, but most of them were internal.  I am really fighting I batter with my own insecurities.  That is why I am finding it hard to be myself.  Wow I am all over the place with this.  I really want to go to bed now , but I will much things a lot clearer tomorrow.  

The Battle With the Self. Interesting.

-Tina