Trans People and Cupcakes !!! Luvley!!

Ok so what is up with me and what is happening in life. Well interestingly enough I have been really interested in the lives of transexual women, (I am not trying to walk down that road folks). I think it is truly interesting how someone totally switches genders. It got me thinking about how I viewed gender. At first I was really reluctant to except it. I was thinking, "You are what you are born!!!" and if anything, you might let's say create a new alternative gender, something that is more fluid. Then I found that I started to become irritated at the fact that people could actually change their birth certificates. That seemed bizarre to me. Thinking, so lets say I fall in "love" with this "guy" then he later tells me that he was a girl and now he is a man. I started to feel totally freaked out. BUT! now I am started to really think about why I would feel freaked out. Why do trans women make me feel uneasy. I feel like I just seen them as, just another man trying to take over the world of women. lol Then I started thinking that, men have options for everything, they could even become a women if they wanted to. However a trans man, would have to...well, I don't know what they would have to do in terms of "anatomy". AH MEN!. But now I feel that I have become a little more open to the fact that there exist different people in the world. I still have my own ideas about the subject, but now I am open to being enlightened, i guess. But yeah I have really been looking at youtube vids about it, random, but that's me.

What else is going in my head. Yes!! I am getting ready to graduate -PRAYING TO GOD A PASS THESE LAST FEW CLASSES- and it is getting really scary. I don't know what I want to do, or better, I know what I want to do, act and entertainment but I am unsure as to which road to choose. Graduation just presents so many questions, What to do? How to pay for student loans - AND LET ME TELL YOU I GOT THOSE. MAN!! I am thinking of going to Spain to teach English and getting into some theater as well. Maybe the Spanish will love me like the French did Josephine Baker -LESS BANANAS AND EXOTIFICATION THOUGH!! But we will see, I figure god will lead me down the path that he intends for me, ya heard me.

I have crazy ideas in my head, movie scripts, plays, and cupcake shops!, I know I am everywhere, I want to open up a cupcake bakery one day to. I please believe that my cupcakes will be BOMB!!! I love cupcakes, in fact when I get my first dog, tea cup something, I am going to name him cupcakes, yes that is plural!

Also, I am attending a group dealing with body image now. Yeah, if you have read my past blogs you know I got issues, lol. But the group is going well, I love it, plus I would recommend anyone going through anything that is driving them crazy to get counseling. I feel that it is good to get things off your chest and to let things go. More on that later though. I am staying positive and motivating!!

Well this entry was everywhere I know, but hey that's me. until next time luvs

MUAH <3

XTEENA